Bad time gone!

Dear blog,

Its been few days since my last update. Having stressful days lately, but i do believe it will pass soon. Although its hard I never tell my father that i couldnt cope with all the payments that i have to settle until this very end moment. I really wanted to help my family out, but honestly if i put all my efforts to them who's going to help me if i needed. Oh well, hopefully next month i will get a job to cover all my expenses.


Oh yeah, Zalora is having a huge sales tonight. I will share my voucher to you guys (if there's any) :P

Well a new a chapter of a new start, well indeed

Dear blog,

It's something new to me, since the changes has been turning over and over within months to me. sometimes i feel bad for my self, and most of the time i tried to be more positive. but hell' yeah, i feel magnificent now. A new move to a new direction may start hard, and hard to cope at first. Anyways I thank god everyday for giving me the opportunity of test over and over again.

New start might be hard, but now i see its something good because i learn and i grow to be more independent and more self reliant more than ever. having my new housemate is not a bad thing at all, great people, with the same amount of friendliness that my ex housemates used to have.

I can't complaint more that this time. I just be more positive towards the changes and I will be more positive to accept the changes in life.

"Minor changes really helps a lot in life, being grateful each days helps us to move on to somewhere thats even better"

Well today I found this little guy, and with the imperfection which really makes it stand out from other cats cuteness. No one in this world is perfect, so we have to stay more positive in order to become someone who stand out from the crowd. Just like this beautiful fella.

Its a well Good Bye.

To my dearest blog,

I am so sad in these few days for having some bad moments in my life. As usual there things to be proud of and there is things to be worried of and being sad about. As i proceed to my next chapter in life, I couldn't imagine that this day has finally come. that is me and my best friend have to move from the house that we have been together for 2 years.

I just couldn't speak out what's in my mind now, everything feels just awkward. without my friends blabbering with me, making noises everyday and even laugh together it just really really feel so sad for me.

Honestly, losing my friends has been dreadful, but i know nothing last in this world. So with positive thinking i have to move on.

Bad News

Dear diary,

Life has been a complete new chapter to me in this year, challenges and heartbreaking incidents kept on going these days. but nothing will last eventually even for our bad days.

As for today, i have been receiving quite some bad news. for the first day of my resume to my new semester i was late this morning. other than that I also received a phone call from my company that they will fulfill the requirements of giant hypermarket by not hiring students as their promoter as they think that shah alam students are thieves. followed by an argument with my housemate with something simple. I dont understand why, but if i say i will help please do not push me to my limits. as i have my own problem and things to be settle.

Here comes the part that i will never wanted to heard or know. One of my best friend from shah alam here, has been suspected to have some disease for his eyes that might cause imperfect vision. at the same time he lost his cell phone during his trip home while its raining. I really hope that its a false alarm, and i dont really want to see a good person at a very young age to have a bad eyesight that might be worse than a senior citizen.

All I wanted to say is, I pray the best for my friend. Although I am having quite a rough time, but I really wanted to stay as positive as possible so that people around me will be able to feel the positivity and able to stay positive to get thru what is happening.

I hope, wish and also pray the best for my dearest friend.

My First Post

Hi all,

I've decided to do a blog for myself. I think this blog won't be popular or view by anyone at all. But i will still write my diary here in hope to be able to inspire one and another.

I will start by introducing myself. I am a Malaysian, and I am a student in diploma international business. as part of me, i am from a finance challenging family. I study and i support my family at the same time. Quite challenging right? but anyways it feels good to be able to study and help my family and friends whenever is possible. a lot of people says that i should ditch my own family and head off for my own career, and people always says to me that i dont have to torture myself  for being too committed for my family. but in my opinion i think it is something cruetial to help and support our family as much as possible. because without them I am not standing here as a human being. due to the fact that we cant choose who we want to be with.

As an asian, we always put our family at first no matter how they treat us. Like my situation, my family never appriciate my efforts to them and they always keep looking down on me saying that i am nothing. May be like my religious always believes "karma from the past life", and i do believe its a part of that so. I always been dreaming to be able to achieve something in life, and I always been dreaming about it. I want to become a person who is able to contribute to others, change the world to another direction, help people out and etc. Am i being too greedy? or am i just dreaming for a success?

I dont want to be a wealthy person but i just wanted to be a person who able to contribute to the world by doing a small part of goodness in life.

ok that's enough about me.

these months i have been experiencing too much of changes in life. Having to move houses for two times. the first one will be my hometown, the place that i have been staying for 23 years, well its just a village and i never appreciated it until today. I really regretted for not being a grateful person, not appreciating what my father could afford until my whole family lost that house in my village (government took the land back for development). the second will be with my housemates, they have been with me for two years and now they're off to practical i have no choice but to move to another place since everyone is abandoning the house we rented. Seriously I was happy living with my friends, talks about stuffs, share our thoughts and so on. But now I have nothing left, no one besides me to share what trouble me.

Well, as i always believe in staying positive always makes a different in life. Am i just being so damn unlucky in life or I am just thinking too much?