My First Post

Hi all,

I've decided to do a blog for myself. I think this blog won't be popular or view by anyone at all. But i will still write my diary here in hope to be able to inspire one and another.

I will start by introducing myself. I am a Malaysian, and I am a student in diploma international business. as part of me, i am from a finance challenging family. I study and i support my family at the same time. Quite challenging right? but anyways it feels good to be able to study and help my family and friends whenever is possible. a lot of people says that i should ditch my own family and head off for my own career, and people always says to me that i dont have to torture myself  for being too committed for my family. but in my opinion i think it is something cruetial to help and support our family as much as possible. because without them I am not standing here as a human being. due to the fact that we cant choose who we want to be with.

As an asian, we always put our family at first no matter how they treat us. Like my situation, my family never appriciate my efforts to them and they always keep looking down on me saying that i am nothing. May be like my religious always believes "karma from the past life", and i do believe its a part of that so. I always been dreaming to be able to achieve something in life, and I always been dreaming about it. I want to become a person who is able to contribute to others, change the world to another direction, help people out and etc. Am i being too greedy? or am i just dreaming for a success?

I dont want to be a wealthy person but i just wanted to be a person who able to contribute to the world by doing a small part of goodness in life.

ok that's enough about me.

these months i have been experiencing too much of changes in life. Having to move houses for two times. the first one will be my hometown, the place that i have been staying for 23 years, well its just a village and i never appreciated it until today. I really regretted for not being a grateful person, not appreciating what my father could afford until my whole family lost that house in my village (government took the land back for development). the second will be with my housemates, they have been with me for two years and now they're off to practical i have no choice but to move to another place since everyone is abandoning the house we rented. Seriously I was happy living with my friends, talks about stuffs, share our thoughts and so on. But now I have nothing left, no one besides me to share what trouble me.

Well, as i always believe in staying positive always makes a different in life. Am i just being so damn unlucky in life or I am just thinking too much?